Friday, 20 December 2013

The Poison of Bitterness

In 2012, a situation at home arose which meant I become quite bitter towards the people involved - particularly Mum.  I was hoping that by being bitter towards these people I would somehow hurt them but I only succeeded in injuring myself, although no doubt these people were injured as well.
The Lord kept tapping on my shoulder all year trying to tell me to let go of my bitterness and let forgiveness reign in my heart instead, but I refused to let go and instead dug my heels in deeper.
In January 2013, I went to the "a passion for Jesus" camp in Sydney and one of the first messages was about bitterness and letting it go and forgiving those you're bitter against.
It was then that my heart was finally broken and I saw the seriousness of bitterness and I knew I had to let my own bitterness go and that I had to forgive the people who had hurt me - particularly Mum.
I went to a quiet spot and wept tears as I did business with the Lord. I finally let go of my deep bitterness and the freedom, joy and peace that followed was unbelievable... I couldn't believe that I had been so stubborn to hang onto my bitter feelings for so long!! I immediately wrote a letter to Mum asking her for forgiveness which I posted a few days later.
I do still struggle with bitterness rising in my heart from time to time and I am always tempted to hold on to it but I know that it is not worth it and that the best path to follow is the path of forgiveness, which is the path I endeavor to follow every time.
It is not always easy to forgive, especially when the hurt experienced - whether it's real or imagined - is very painful. But as something that I read once says along these lines is that bitterness is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die - and it is so true!! The only person who gets hurt through bitterness I'd yourself.  So may I encourage each and every one of you dear girls - I'd there is any bitterness in your heart at the moment - let it go! And instead forgive the person who has hurt you. Don't cling onto your bitter feelings because they will only hurt YOU. Bitterness not only hurts you but it hurts your relationships - not only with the people around you but also with the Lord and it's not worth it. Forgiveness is the best thing... Although painful at first, it only provides freedom and joy... Bitterness doesn't hurt at first but eventually it brings great pain and hurt.
I don't know about you, but I choose forgiveness - not only for today but for every day.

Thursday, 17 October 2013


Wow!!! Time has definitely flown by the past few months!! I feel like I hardly know what has been happening the last few months, they have gone that swiftly!!

But here a few photos to give you a brief overview of what has been happening in this second half of the year for me!!


AT THE GOLD COAST.....Gold Coast vs Melbourne


some very dear friends of mine bought tickets for Matt and I to be able to go to Andre Rieu's concert last weekend. We were 5 rows from the front it was absolutely amazing!!

Thursday, 15 August 2013

Much Delayed Post

Greetings to all, and my sincerest apologies for not posting on here sooner......time has got away from me far too quickly. :/

The last few months have indeed been very busy for me, with Bible College and work - between the 2 there doesn't leave much leisure time :( but I am learning so much at College, and I wouldn't swap it for anything.

The month of July was our mid-year holidays, and my brother Matthew and I went home for 3 weeks, which we thoroughly enjoyed as it meant we got to see Mum as well as catch up with other friends. It was especially nice to see Mum again as we hadn't seen her since January and it was the longest period of time that we hadn't seen her.

The church we are at, is preparing for their annual Bible Conference (Encouraging a Passion for God Conference), and I, for one, am looking forward to being challenged and convicted :) Prayer would be appreciated, that God would be working in the lives of those who come to the Conference.

The last few months, the Lord has been teaching me about the need to wait on Him - especially in regards to my future. So often I have become impatient, wondering why the Lord isn't allowing certain things to happen in my life, and why He IS allowing other things to happen - and He just keeps reminding me, just to be still in His presence and let Him work everything out in HIS timing. Such a hard lesson to learn, but so necessary!

With love to all,

POEM: Keep Me

  1. In this wicked world am I,
    Watch Thou o’er me from on high;
    Keep my soul, lest I should be
    Led astray, O Lord, from Thee.
    • Refrain:
      All I am or hope to be,
      I commit, dear Lord, to Thee;
      Oh, preserve me in Thy love,
      Till I reach Thy courts above.
  2. Keep me spotless, keep me pure,
    Keep me lest the world allure;
    Keep me in Thy secret place,
    Where I e’er may see Thy face.
  3. Keep me guiltless night and day,
    Help me Thy commands obey;
    Keep me humble, let not pride
    Ever in my soul abide.
  4. Keep me gentle, let no word
    From my lips be ever heard
    That shall wound a tender heart,
    Cause a tear of grief to start.
  5. Keep me for Thyself alone,
    Nevermore to be mine own;
    Keep me in Thy favor sweet,
    In Thy grace and truth complete.
  6. -Charles Naylor

Thursday, 18 April 2013


Compassion is definitely something that each and every one of us appreciate receiving – but so few of us can truly say that we are really compassionate towards those with whom we meet in our daily lives.

Compassion can be described as “a feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who is stricken by misfortune, accompanied by a strong desire to alleviate the suffering.” (source unknown). 

Can this be said of you, whenever you see someone who is suffering – are you moved by such deep sympathy and sorrow for them, that you are driven by that sorrow to do something to relieve their pain?  Or are you the sort of person who will just ignore the sufferings of another, and just pass by – pretending that you never noticed?

I was recently convicted about my own level of compassion, and I saw that all too often, I will just ignore those who are suffering – I might just say a word of compassion to them, expressing my sorrow at their pain, but then pass on, and once they are out of sight, I’ll quickly forget what I just saw.

What brought it home to me was John chapter 9 – Jesus healing the blind man…..when Christ stopped and healed this man, He was actually on the run for His life.  If you read in the last part of John 8, the Pharisees were just about to stone Christ, and He was able to get out of the temple, and while He was escaping, He saw this blind man. 

I know that for me, if I was in that situation – I would just be running as fast as I could to get away from that temple and from those Pharisees….who cares about that blind man?!  But Jesus didn’t think that way – He had no thought of His own life, or about the fact that there were some very angry Pharisees on His heels – He saw a man in need, and He acted in compassion on that need, and gave that man healing – not only physical healing, but also spiritual healing.

That really caused me to think – what is my response to those around me, particularly the unsaved?  They are spiritually blind, and need just as much healing as the blind man of John 9.    But I so quickly just pass them by and just ignore them….more concerned with my own life, then showing compassion on them, and bringing them to the Saviour who will restore sight unto them!

Throughout all 4 Gospels, we see Christ showing compassion again and again to those around Him, and in most instances, His compassionate heart towards the unsaved resulted in the unsaved repenting and following Him!

As you look at the life of Christ, you will find that it doesn’t take much to show compassion towards someone – even something as simple as feeding the hungry, can have lasting results!

So may I encourage each and every one of you to try and show compassion to those around you today!  Even if it’s only one simple act – helping an elderly person carry their heavy bags, helping a younger sibling finish their chores, surprise your mother by doing the washing for her, or by doing the dirty dinner dishes without having to be asked!  These are simple, easy tasks that can be done in very little time – but oh the results that can come forth as a result!! 

With much love in Christ,

Sunday, 24 March 2013

Monday, 4 March 2013


The exciting news is that my brother Matthew and I have finally got jobs after job hunting for about 5 weeks!!!!  We are going to be working at McDonalds - not the greatest job to be desired, but its definitely a provision of the Lord, and we are praising Him for providing these jobs for us!! 
As can be imagined, we were getting pretty discouraged at not getting anything - and especially when you still need to be buying food, paying bills, etc.  :)  So when the Lord miraculously provided us with these jobs yesterday (Monday 4th March), we were praising Him and we are VERY EXCITED to say the least.  :)

Wednesday, 13 February 2013


Hi all!!
I know it's be REALLY long since I've posted ANYTHING on here, so I thought I'd give you an update on what has been happening the last while.  :)

The first week of January, was Senior's Camp at Crystal Creek Christian Camp, and I was a leader there for the first time.  I thoroughly enjoyed doing that, and it was amazing to see the Lord working in the lives of the young people at camp - seeing them soften under conviction and allowing the Lord to do a work in their heart and life.

Immediately after Seniors Camp, I travelled up to Sydney with a group of friends for a young ladies' conference in Sydney's NW.  It was an AMAZING 4 days, and the Lord taught me SO MUCH about bitterness vs forgiveness, pride vs humbleness, guy/girl relationships, and heaps more!!!


Then the biggest change of all happened at the end of January.......I have moved from Coolamon, NSW, where I was Nanny to 3 beautiful children (for you folk who didn't know that - I was in Coolamon for 6 months as a nanny to 3 children), about 16 hours north to Grafton (1 hour north of Coffs Harbour, 3 hours south of Brisbane), and as of this coming Monday (18th February), I will be attending Clarence Valley Baptist Bible College. 
This has been a pretty sudden decision, and it all happened pretty quickly, so if you're sitting there in a state of shock, I don't blame you :)  I'm kinda feeling the same myself.  :)  It seems hard to believe that I am actually attending Bible College, but I'm looking forward to what the Lord is going to teach me!
For those of you who have the Coolamon address, please DO NOT write to that address any more, since I'm obviously not there now.  :)  If you would like my new address, please let me know and I'll send it to you.  Otherwise, please just post anything to my Mt Beauty address (if you have that).
Love you all heaps!

Friday, 1 February 2013


Guess our national leaders didn't expect this. On Thursday, Darrell Scott, the father of Rachel Scott, a victim of the Columbine High School shootings in Littleton, Colorado, was invited to address the House Judiciary Committee's subco...mmittee. What he said to our national leaders during this special session of Congress was painfully truthful. They were not prepared for what he was to say, nor was it received well. It needs to be heard by every parent, every teacher, every politician, every sociologist, every psychologist, and every so-called expert! These courageous words spoken by Darrell Scott are powerful, penetrating, and deeply personal. There is no doubt that God sent this man as a voice crying in the wilderness. The following is a portion of the transcript:

"Since the dawn of creation there has been both good &evil in the hearts of men and women. We all contain the seeds of kindness or the seeds of violence. The death of my wonderful daughter, Rachel Joy Scott, and the deaths of that heroic teacher, and the other eleven children who died must not be in vain. Their blood cries out for answers.

"The first recorded act of violence was when Cain slew his brother Abel out in the field. The villain was not the club he used.. Neither was it the NCA, the National Club Association. The true killer was Cain, and the reason for the murder could only be found in Cain's heart.

"In the days that followed the Columbine tragedy, I was amazed at how quickly fingers began to be pointed at groups such as the NRA. I am not a member of the NRA. I am not a hunter. I do not even own a gun. I am not here to represent or defend the NRA -because I don't believe that they are responsible for my daughter's death. Therefore I do not believe that they need to be defended. If I believed they had anything to do with Rachel's murder I would be their strongest opponent.

I am here today to declare that Columbine was not just a tragedy -- it was a spiritual event that should be forcing us to look at where the real blame lies! Much of the blame lies here in this room. Much of the blame lies behind the pointing fingers of the accusers themselves. I wrote a poem just four nights ago that expresses my feelings best.

Your laws ignore our deepest needs, Your words are empty air. You've stripped away our heritage, You've outlawed simple prayer. Now gunshots fill our classrooms, And precious children die. You seek for answers everywhere, And ask the question "Why?" You regulate restrictive laws, Through legislative creed. And yet you fail to understand, That God is what we need!

"Men and women are three-part beings. We all consist of body, mind, and spirit. When we refuse to acknowledge a third part of our make-up, we create a void that allows evil, prejudice, and hatred to rush in and wreak havoc. Spiritual presences were present within our educational systems for most of our nation's history. Many of our major colleges began as theological seminaries. This is a historical fact. What has happened to us as a nation? We have refused to honor God, and in so doing, we open the doors to hatred and violence. And when something as terrible as Columbine's tragedy occurs -- politicians immediately look for a scapegoat such as the NRA. They immediately seek to pass more restrictive laws that contribute to erode away our personal and private liberties. We do not need more restrictive laws. Eric and Dylan would not have been stopped by metal detectors. No amount of gun laws can stop someone who spends months planning this type of massacre. The real villain lies within our own hearts.

"As my son Craig lay under that table in the school library and saw his two friends murdered before his very eyes, he did not hesitate to pray in school. I defy any law or politician to deny him that right! I challenge every young person in America , and around the world, to realize that on April 20, 1999, at Columbine High School prayer was brought back to our schools. Do not let the many prayers offered by those students be in vain. Dare to move into the new millennium with a sacred disregard for legislation that violates your God-given right to communicate with Him.

To those of you who would point your finger at the NRA -- I give to you a sincere challenge.. Dare to examine your own heart before casting the first stone! My daughter's death will not be in vain! The young people of this country will not allow that to happen!" - Darrell Scott

Do what the mainstream media did not - - let the world hear this man's speech. Please share this with your friends!